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by Scott Summers
Mon May 17, 2010 2:03 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

First off thank you for all the replies, they've been so so helpful. I haven't come to terms with what I am yet, and I suspect that that's the hardest hurdle I'm going to have to cross. But I will do and hopefully with minimal damage to myself. I still do want the whole traditional family thing but ...
by Scott Summers
Fri May 14, 2010 4:27 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

OK, now I'm scared, I've just watched that program that was on last night on ITV about homophobia and I am petrified. I've never EVER thrown a punch in my life, hell I've never TAKEN a punch in my life so how'd you think I'd be trying to cope with an army of people baying for my blood when I'm tryin...
by Scott Summers
Fri May 14, 2010 11:09 am
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

I know she loves me but i also know that this kind of stuff freaks her out and it's not like she has anyone to turn to, to discuss this with. I explained earlier that other parts of our family aren't that close to us, My sister moved out ages ago, My 2nd brother moved out 3 years ago, My eldest brot...
by Scott Summers
Fri May 14, 2010 1:08 am
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

No problemo Bel. It's just taking that first step guys. I'm really worried that my Ma won't want anything to do with me. The rest of my family I can handle cos I don't really bother with them apart from at Christmas and at other certain times during the year, I'll be sad sure but if my Ma rejects me...
by Scott Summers
Thu May 13, 2010 11:03 am
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

Bel Bel,

I know that happiness comes in many ways, but this is kind of a big thing to be unhappy about. If I can't accept myself then who the heck is gonna?
by Scott Summers
Tue May 11, 2010 11:14 pm
Forum: Cheer me up!
Topic: Recently
Replies: 8
Views: 3676

Re: Recently

Yup, I've got a good idea of who suspects as well, thankfully they're all in the 'closer than just friends' category. Now I've just got to get over myself.
by Scott Summers
Tue May 11, 2010 10:27 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

I know I'll probably feel differently about being gay if I actually meet someone, but that involves me being able to get my head around it even slightly. That's what I'm trying to concentrate on now. When I get myself sorted, that's when I think I'll tell my Ma, I owe her that much. There's somethin...
by Scott Summers
Mon May 10, 2010 2:12 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

I think it must be because I'm afraid of being different and people looking at me weirdly. Hell I went for a free trial at this gym and after i talked to one of the staff, I sat down had a cup of tea, looked around and I swear I could feel all eyes on me, like I didn't beling there. So I quickly mad...
by Scott Summers
Mon May 10, 2010 1:58 pm
Forum: Cheer me up!
Topic: Recently
Replies: 8
Views: 3676

Re: Recently

Can you believe this? One of my so-called friends, even though he knows I'm skint and off work still asks to borrow money off me and when I say that I can't he flips on me and calls me a liar?!? ](*,) This time off work has helped me figure out who are worth bothering with though. in relation to my ...
by Scott Summers
Mon May 10, 2010 1:10 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

Snail, Like the title says I don't wanna be gay, I really don't. I hate the fact that I'm not normal in the traditional sense. Granted there'd be no guarantees that I'd be happier that way but it'd be a heckuva lot easier not to have this 'thing' that you have to get out of the way when you meet peo...
by Scott Summers
Mon May 10, 2010 11:26 am
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

You're all right on the whole mother front. I had a chat with my sister the other day (who seems to have forgotten, or is blocking it out), and we both agree that I've stuck by the family long enough. It's time for me to go out there and spread my wings. But I am gonna hold off telling my Ma that I'...
by Scott Summers
Thu May 06, 2010 11:16 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

Retrochav, I can see what you're getting at, but in my family we're all very close knit, we only live literally 3 or 4 minutes walk from each other, so we might as well be living together still if you know what I mean. I can tell you where the whole wanting my own biological kids is coming from. Whe...
by Scott Summers
Thu May 06, 2010 11:04 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: Don't want to be gay

All_apologies, I know this is gonna sound weird but I hate the fact that I'm attracted to men. I want to be able to walk into someplace and find myself wanting to get into a girls pants (sorry for being vulgar.) The other day I was out with my mate and it was warm out so people were wearing skimpy t...
by Scott Summers
Wed May 05, 2010 4:47 pm
Forum: Cheer me up!
Topic: Recently
Replies: 8
Views: 3676

Re: Recently

So, are ya sayin that I should make myself "Unavailable" sometimes?
by Scott Summers
Wed May 05, 2010 4:44 pm
Forum: Sexuality
Topic: Don't want to be gay
Replies: 41
Views: 17497

Re: This is probably in the wrong place but

I know that my Ma shouldn't have said that, but I can see where's she's coming from. To the best of my knowledge I'm the first gay in my family, can you imagine how that makes my Ma feel? I also know that my life is my own, but I'm a worrywort. If I did come out to my Ma and she took it badly, I can...