by whoopsie » Fri Sep 11, 2009 4:26 pm
I feel so down at the moment. I've been unemployed for almost 6 months. I just can't seem to get a job. I've applied for hundreds, on agency websites, through recruitment pages in the local paper, direct through local companies websites and signed up with agencies. I have to go to the skanky job centre twice a week and i hate it. I have 2 loans which are both 2 installments in arrears, my boyfriend is stressed because of it and i can tell he's annoyed at me for it. I applied for a receptionist role at a vets yesterday. I want the job SO BAD. Not just cos it's a job, but it's working alongside animals. I really took my time with the application and my cv but i just don't think they're going to call me in for an interview. No one does. I never hear back from anyone. If anything, it's a letter of rejection, but even that's rare. I do some cash in hand work once a fortnight, but £50 doesn't go far. I hate this. To top it off, cos i've been sitting on my bum all this time, i've put on over a stone in weight. Not that it matters too much, cos i was underweight. But i haven't put on weight in over 6 years so not having any of my clothes fit me (and no money to replace them) makes me feel rubbish. I feel fat. I have to wear my boyfriends old jeans. I have nothing girlie to wear. I used to live in skinny jeans, now i can't get them over my thighs. I've put on around 3 inches. It just feels like one thing after another and i've had enough.
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