Hi All,
I find myself looking for advice, or more likely a kick up the back side. I work for a small company with roughly 15 employees. As a result we're a close bunch and I'd count most of the folk here as friends as much as I would colleagues. My boss and I started the technical department in this company together 5 years ago, so I feel a closer connection with him than anyone else. I guess as a result of working in a small company there are limited opportunities for advancement and it was announced last week that my boss is leaving the company.
The news that my boss was leaving floored me on two counts; I'm losing a friend and 'go-to' guy and the company is losing a very experienced technical asset. The upshot of all this news is that I've been asked to fill the project management aspects of my boss's role, while another software developer has been asked to take on the technical lead role.
I know this is a good thing for me, I was ultimately in the same position he was in that if I ever started to want more from my job I would have had to leave, whereas now I get extra responsibility and a better salary whilst staying with the company and people I know and like, but I find myself quaking at the thought of it. I haven't been sleeping for a week and I find myself literally shaking when I talk about it.
I am an insecure person. I like to know exactly what I'm doing, how I'm doing it and when. If any of these things are thrown into disarray I have trouble with it. I also think constantly about all the things I would normally ask boss-man that I now can't. I go over all the aspects of project management, all of which I've been involved in before to some extent, that I've forgotten about.
My question, is this normal? If it's not, can people suggest how I might get a grip on myself?!