Hey,
About a year and a half ago i became ill, it turned out to be some kind of virus (i never actually got told which i had caught) but it left me very run down, i kept getting throat infection after throat infection and also with a bad stomach. This obviously affected my school attendance as i was off for a good while or being sent home. It gradually got worse where i was afraid to go to school just incase i was ill there... i would start panicking in lessons when i started to feel like i would be ill which after time lead to me having panik attacks. I tried my best to go as much as i could but it just got worse.. i was having panick attacks each day. It really didnt help when i asked to go out the room or go to the nurse an people would start whispering to eachother or shouting out about how i always have to go and asking loads of questions. This obviously made me worse and after time i couldnt even face going into the rooms, i would either cry or have a panick attack. This led to me never wanting to leave the house in the morning as i knew what the day would be like and in the end hardly attended school.
I've been seeing a type of counciler for a few months now but i'm still feeling the same. I know these things take time and i accept that but i just find it really hard to cope with as it affects my daily life aswel, especially going out and meeting new people.
I'm ment to be focusing on getting a job now and my parents keep pushing me to do this but how can i go out there and do that when i'm not good around new people? I cant even travel far on public transport on my own.
Having all this happen meant i missed out on alot of coursework an it has turned out that i'm not doing my gcse's. So now i'm left with no gcse's and not being able to get out and go places or do much independintly.
I don't actually see what advice you could give back to this... but i suppose this is just somewhere i can just get it off my chest without people knowing me as i usually dont like to talk about this with people i know.
I used to be the type of girl who was always out there meeting new people and now i just have no self confidence and i'm just afraid of the panick attacks coming back as i just stopped doing everything that could cause them as i hate them so much!
if theres any advice anyone could give to this then its all welcome. Or if anyone has any other ideas of what i could do to help myself an try get my old life back
Thanks xx