I have a huge crush on..

[fairy of darkness]

Well rejection from him wouldn't degrade my self confidence because quite frankly I'd be incredibly shocked if he even so much as considered seeing me that way.

There's this girl who he claims is his "soulmate" but i think he is joking around, because they are just old friends but i can't help feeling jealous.

PAH

feelings really truly suck sometimes

thanks for all the help so far

F.O.D

xxx

[fairy of darkness]

OH NO! new and BAD developments

Yesterday he went up to stay overnight with a guy he met from London.

Which is 2 and a half hours from where i live. Last time this happened with a guy from manchester and he ended up moving there for 6 weeks.

I dont know what ill do with myself if he leaves AGAIN. because fair enough it may give me a chance to get over him but then the minute he comes back i know i'll want him all over again!.

ARGH

[pink stripes]

hey f.o.d

Well he was only staying over for one night - so I don't think anything serious will develop here - yet.

Just because he moved once (and it was only for 6weeks) it doesn't mean to say that he will do the same thing now.

Wait and see what happens first ok

--x

[fairy of darkness]

Hes just changed his train times for thursday instead

he is staying another night

and then
it will be another and another

cause im just a person who he wants to know until he finds something better

thats how
i feel

im never good enough

sorry im having not the best of days today

x

[Bel Bel]

This is what I was worried about that him picking a guy (or just someone else) has crushed you
I think however much it hurts you got your answer that he sees you as a friend
I know it's hard but at least now you can grieve and move on from him

[fairy of darkness]

I feel like

now as hes got someone

i could just tell him, get if off my chest, and hear the rejection, so i could get over it.

But i know it isn't worth the embarrassment.

thanks for everything guys

x

[Bel Bel]

no don't tell him becasue then you may not feel you can be friends in the same way
When you do get over him , because you will, it will be nice to always have him as a good friend
I think you need one of these

[fairy of darkness]

thats exactly what i need

a huge

caring

big bear

hug
but no one at home is giving me those today

grrrr
lol i dont know why i'm angry cause i've done this to myself ANYWAY
I let myself fall for him

thankyou again.

love always

F.O.D

xxx