I was a size 22 for a long time, and when I left my ex I started losing weight. Eventually I got down to a size 14 mostly through a healthy diet but occasionally purging if I felt I had eaten particularly bad that day. I've had 2 babies in the last 2 years and I'm now a size 12. But the being sick has got out of hand, I've been being sick 3-4 times each day for the last 3 years. I eat ridiculous amounts of food in secret, my husband doesn't realise the full extent of it and I don't know how to break the cycle.
I look at myself and all I see is fat, I know logically that I'm not hugely overweight or anything, but I do think that I am overweight, and that I still need to lose more. People keep telling me I'm slim enough but I don't see what they're seeing. I took these pictures this week, and I don't think they look like what I look like in real life if that makes sense?


I'm tired of being sick, having bad skin, wasting so much money on food just to purge it all again. But I don't know how to stop.